Currently Playing Remember Right Now By Spitalfield see related

- fairweather friend, am i ready?

mood:  ahhh!

ok so im not gonna say my life couldnt be any worse right now cuz i know if i say that then it will get worse...im still sick...too much homework...confused as can be...um for the most part thats it i guess...well also i hate when people act like your best friend one second and when someone else walks in the room its like youre not even there anymore...yah way too much of that going on...sometimes in class i stare out the window at the sky, and i guess i wish that i was as free as everything up there, no worries to think of, and  no one to impress...lately ive had so many things to worry about and so many people to impress...i guess the thing im most worried about or need to be is school and college and stuff like that but that stuff is so annoying and there are too many people telling me what i need to do...i dont get why i cant decide for myself...i need april vacation to come asap...i know its a long way away but i just hope it comes fast...its also upsetting to me when i can tell someone close to me is upset with me or just about something and wont talk to me about stuff...or even if its not me...i at least wish i knew...um another problem...all i really want to do with my life is music...i want to make it big some day but i dont feel i have what it takes...so if whoever reads this thinks i do and has heard me and honestly believes it just give me ur support cuz i need it and i think i just need some self esteem to do what i want but i need help...i guessi need to stop typing before my life story ends up in this entry...but i dont plan on being in a good mood for a while so if you hate me mad then watch out...i need to get better  but its taking too long and im just getting sicker...im going to go finish homework and take medicine and go to bed...leave comments if youre bored...later.

Currently Playing From the Depths of Dreams By Senses Fail see related

- freefall without a parachute

mood:  ehh im sick

sorry for the lack of updates...ive either been really busy or just sick...sunday i saw the best concert ever...i went with my friend michelle and we waited outside for four hours which went by pretty fast...we were front row for folly and the beautiful mistake but after being pinned up against the stage and my knee hurting her and i moved...stupid fat girl behind me squished me...but we still could see decently for moneen and senses fail...they were amazing and i cant wait until senses fail comes back in april...i got two t shirts and a pick from the lead guy in moneen and also a pick from garrett from senses fail...and umm the bass player from the beautiful mistake and also garrett from sf signed my ticket...monday was just a boring day and i worked for three hours so that wasnt bad...i had a headache for alot of the night tho...i woke up this morning still with a headache and a sore throat so i stayed home from school and i still dont feel good so i hope im better tomorrow....i guess thats it for now and ill try to update more often...bye.

Currently Playing Weak's End By Emery see related

- the whole cd is powerful...get it.

mood:    better than yesterday

so last night i went to the dance recital...i got to nap so it wasnt bad...and they werent all fat like i expected so that was good...just another shitty night tho...the weather was dark and wet...i hate that weather...this morning at ten i got woken up by a phonecall at 10 asking me to come fill in for someone in a soccer game at 12 so i did and we won 8-6...good game...um so i went and got all the stuff for my science fair board and report...and i have no idea how to do it but oh well...so im gonna go do that now and hopefully get some sleep tonight...later.

Currently Playing Are We Really Happy With Who We Are Right Now By Moneen see related

- closing my eyes wont help me leave, the last song i will ever want to sing, start angry....end mad

mood:    sad

so its going to be my last night of vacation to actually go out tonight...and my parents are making me go to a friggin dance recital...someone save me...i dont feel like sitting through an entire night of one cute nonfat girl and a bunch of fat girls and old ladies dancing around...last two times i fell asleep...i hate recitals...umm oh yeah and i have to do my damn science fair project but i think ill save that for tomorrow.......so last night i went to best buy and got True Crime: Streets of L.A. for ps2 and its a cool game and then i went to michelles and we watched xmen which was a horrible movie but it was cool just hangin out...and so then i came home and found out while i was gone some ppl parked their car on the side of my house and were lookin at it and then drivin around it slowly...a little scary...so then i ate a red baron mini deep dish pepperoni pizza and sat here until about 3 am  and played a little true crime but other than that kinda just sat here cuz i was sad once again...well im gonna go play some ps2...someone pleeease save me from the dance recital....later.

Currently Playing Light a Match for I Deserve to Burn By Beautiful Mistake see related

- actually the new cd by them but its not an option for xanga

so this is my first xanga entry...everyone seems to have one of these things so i figured id give it a try...today is a crappy day and im in a mood where i dont want to talk to anyone ...im getting my first work shedule which is shitty...but i might go to best buy later and im going to michelles tonight...umm i think thats it so im gonna stop boring you and be on my way...til next time.